No ambition and too much addiction. Not a very good mix. I'm only ever happy when I am hooked on something, usually. "Out with the old and in with the new" is how it goes. I was spending three to five hours on Facebook (games mostly) on any given day, but when MiniNation (and FFM) came around (more specifically-- the iPod Touch), I barely ever went on it. It's odd... I love socializing online, but not in person. It makes me so happy, I can be whoever I want to be, and portray a friendly, bubbly personality. I am popular on MN, and I was on pico too (FB).
I also tend to get addicted to tv shows (cartoon type usually). I feel euphoric and hyper whenever I find a new cartoon to watch. I go absolutely batcrap crazy whenever I watch Danny Phantom (or Invader Zim), I have a rather unhealthy obsession with him... I think I like it because it's a memory. Memories are the most important thing in the world to me, and I remember watching Danny Phantom when it was still on air when I was 12. I think I understand why pot-heads can't quit- why would you want to stop doing something that makes you so happy? Danny is the only thing that makes me feel good. Why would I stop? I even wasted the Internet time by watching so many episodes a day online. I guess I just need something to occupy my mind with everything else going wrong in my life, but all these things control me. I am growing a lot more distant with my dad (for some reason he just pisses me off...), and I blow off my mom... this needs to stop before it ruins my life even more.
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